Shock
I can't stop shaking and I can't get warm.
This is what happens to me when I discover anything new about H-er.
H-er accidentally sent me an email from one of his former lovers (instead of the insurance card) proving he is still in contact with her. I called his second cell phone that he supposedly sold and he answered. And then the next day his current mistress posted pictures showing that they are still together.
But I am okay. Because I required him to stay somewhere else for his visits for the holidays (though he is welcome at the house during the days). I maintained my boundaries regarding intimacy. I reached out rather than isolating and shared my feelings. And I faced the hurt and betrayal rather than hiding behind anger.
But I still felt the physical shock of it. I still had to put on two pairs of socks, my sweats, a robe, and shiver under two blankets for 30 minutes before I got warm.
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