Confirmed

How many times have I said "if only I could see a flashing neon sign!"  I'd know I was making the right decision.

Well this weekend we had a special stake conference and one of the members of the presidency of the seventy was chosen to speak to us. He chose to speak to us about pornography.  He shared that he was on an advisory council with the first presidency that reviewed letters from women who had been victims of emotional, physical, or sexual abuse stemming from pornography.  At one point President Hinckley said "stay away from this.  It DESTROYS families".  He talked about how pornography escalates and ends in infidelity.

He has reviewed THOUSANDS of cases and in EVERY one the abuser blamed it on the person they were abusing.

Nephi received divine confirmation to SEPARATE from his brothers for the safety of his family.

I might have received divine confirmation to SEPARATE from the abuser for my personal safety and the safety of my family.  If I wish to participate in ordinances I MUST forgive him.  (It may take time).

He was very clear.   Even though it seems unfair I must forgive him. BUT that doesn't mean I must trust him.  TRUST MUST BE EARNED.

If there ever was a blinking neon light this was it.  Every word out of his mouth, in the order it came out was the story of my marriage and my thought processes. Laid out in perfect order. 

Faith precedes the miracle. My father told me sometimes you have to make the decision and go with it and if it's wrong Heavenly Father will let you know.  It will quickly become obvious.  So I made my decision and acted and here is my miracle.